I completed my ballot today. As a registered independent, my vote on candidates and ballot initiatives was a mix of party affiliations. Like many, I wish we had better candidates at the top of the ticket. I realize the 3 primary candidates for the Democratic party would have been vilified and “hated” by their opponents no matter what – Clinton (for her secrecy and investigations), Sanders (for being a “communist” and not really a Democrat), and O’Malley (for being too inexperienced) – and all three because they would be “carrying on” from Obama’s “failed” policies.
On the Republican side, had the Republican party elected Kasich (I am almost certain) or probably 2-3 others in the running, the party would very likely have received my vote in this election. However, the party picked the candidate I least could vote for; a person whose public (what I can witness first-hand) lies, secret-ness, and crookedness are the highest I have ever seen – and yes, I know about Clinton’s issues on these same points so there is no need to point those out to me. While I understand how Trump’s words resonate with many across our country, I don’t trust his actions or his temperament, and I believe that he is least fit for the role among those who ran for the office this year. In many ways, I wish Trump had run as a Democrat (which at one point was his affiliation) just so I could then see what many of my deeply committed Republican friends would have said about him and his candidacy unfettered from their loyalty to their party.
When the final tallies in the Republican primary came in and showed Trump the winner by “huge and historic” totals*, I realized I no longer recognized the party of my grandfather (a Reagan picture in his kitchen), my parents and siblings, or of my youth. With such a large and experienced set of candidates to choose from, and with a stated desire to take back the White House and to expand their base, Trump is the candidate the Republican primary voters elected to be their torchbearer? I don’t understand and I can’t comprehend it, but it did make it easier for me to make my decision.
Because of my Christian faith (I am a white, male, educated evangelical Christian) and the words and actions of the Republican party’s elected leader, I find myself disagreeing with the party on immigration (build a wall another country pays for), refugee policy (refuse to accept people, children and women included, who are fleeing from the most violent and viscous killing terror group of our time), and global trade (that negotiations aren’t about give and take between the self-interest of all countries, but should only focus on America-best stances). Gone from the top of the GOP agenda (by the words and actions of its torchbearer) were issues I resonated with and believed in. Some issues still made their way to the party platform but, to be realistic, if Trump wins, I don’t believe he will feel beholden to the platform or the party, since he will have won without much of their help. That said, there are many policies and platforms (and definitely flawed candidates) of the Democratic party that I also disagree with because of my convictions.
No matter who wins today, I have friends and (I believe) family members who voted for Trump willingly and, in some cases, enthusiastically. These are all good people who mean a lot to me and my family. I did not unfriend them or block them from my FB feed because I wanted to hear and see what resonates with them and because I believe they hold their convictions sincerely, and I know them to be caring people who live and love purposefully. I believe their intentions and desires for our country mimic a lot of my own, and I am committed to working alongside them, in love, to try and better our community and to hold our elected and appointed officials to account for their actions and their words.
Finally, I am most grateful for a country that allows its people to vote for very different candidates and platforms. Not all countries/leaders in the world allow such things to happen. I pray that our collective voices might join together after the election to seek unity in purpose even when we disagree in practice. And, may God use our political process to serve the needs of our own people, particularly our most vulnerable, without doing harm to the vulnerable people in other countries of the world. Put another way, may God’s blessings poured out on our country somehow, someway, be a blessing to the rest of the world in the days ahead.
*A side note: I personally witnessed Trump benefiting from a lot of free publicity from our national media because those companies made a ton of money off of his candidacy. One day, early on in the primaries, during the lunchtime news, a local San Diego news station “cut live” to a Trump speech with 2 minutes left on their show – with no commentary, no analysis and no counter voice – just a “filler” prop to get eyes to stop on their station. I had never witnessed this before but, when I did, I knew that Trump had a sway ($$) on our national media that was beyond anything I had ever seen. I believe that this influence had a big impact on his ability to get his message out and to attract votes regardless of what he said or the positions he held.